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The Only Way Out Is Through

From Limitation to Liberation

Shed Your Capricorn Conditioning to Unleash Your Genius Aquarian Weirdness Live and in person in Santa Fe, NM with renegade astrologer Emily Trinkaus, Sunday, October 6, 10am-3pm Our first retreat was such a fantastic and fun success we’re doing it again! A women’s...

Activate Your Liberation

I dunno about you but I am sick to death of being the good girl. Sick of playing by the rules of a game that was never intended for me to win, only to keep you and me on the hamster wheel of doom, ever striving for validation outside of ourselves. Sick of wearing the...

Honoring the Holding Pattern

I sense – and I’m sure you do, too – that great change is on the approaching horizon. I lean towards it and feel the thud of the glass wall – the bell jar - that encases me. It’s the holding pattern. And I am in it. You know you're in a holding pattern when you crave...

Vision Quest Part 3: Letting Go to Receive What Is

Letting Go to Receive What Is After cruising through southern Colorado, visiting Mesa Verde, soaking in the Durango Hot Springs and cresting Wolf Creek Pass, I was finally heading towards my home state of New Mexico. I intended to make my way to Wild Rivers Recreation...

Vision Quest Part 2: A Canyon of Grief

A Fleeting Life, A Canyon of Grief After a solid week in a sea of orange sandstone and pale sagey green, my body and soul were ready for a cooler, more verdant experience. The overriding intention for my quest into the unknown was to practice tuning in more deeply to...

Vision Quest Part 1: Becoming Spider Woman

Becoming Spider Woman in the Utah Desert I turned 50 last month. It was not the birthday I had envisioned some years back. I didn’t dress up as that 50 year old SNL character. I wasn’t surrounded by friends wearing wigs, drinking cocktails and being outrageously...
When you don’t belong anywhere
When you don’t belong anywhere

She never belonged anywhere, not even at home.

Her parents split when she was young. She grew up in two opposing households, which meant two sets of rules to follow, two separate masks to wear. She was a chameleon, a code-switcher, a shape-shifter.

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Do you have a Sister Wound too?
Do you have a Sister Wound too?

My cheeks betrayed me as they burned red with shame. Which then just made me so angry. The bottom had just dropped out and I had no come back. It was my first year of high school and my so-called best friend had just told me I couldn’t carry a tune. In a very smug,...

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I used to hate myself.
I used to hate myself.

A colleague recently called me the ‘guru of joy.’ I was a little taken aback by that because for nearly ALL my life, joyful would have been the last word I’d use to describe myself.

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Gratitude and Shame
Gratitude and Shame

She didn’t feel grateful. Not one bit.   She wasn’t feeling very grateful.   Gratitude came easy to her when things were going well.   When it came to gratitude, she thought it was reserved for receiving gifts and for when things went well. Like when...

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Following My Heart Hurt Like Hell
Following My Heart Hurt Like Hell

I was just shy of 40 and pretty damn sure my life was about to really change. I was preparing to open a huge art exhibition: a culmination of over a year’s worth of work. It was funded by a major grant from the San Francisco Arts Commission. I had recognition - and...

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Witnessing Death
Witnessing Death

In my intimate conversations with some of my clients and you, my beloved readers, I am repeatedly struck by the intense life situations that many of you are experiencing.   It’s so clear that so many of us are witnessing and feeling the macro and the micro...

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Letting Go of Scarcity (It’s Scary!)
Letting Go of Scarcity (It’s Scary!)

The Scarcity Mindset   We’re conditioned to believe there isn’t enough to go around. This is called a scarcity mindset. It’s an innate fear that there won’t be enough for you. Enough money, time, energy, food, water, or even enough love.   In fact, most (or...

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Silence is Deadly
Silence is Deadly

To my dear community,   It is with both a heavy heart and a sheer sense of inspired awe that I witness the largely peaceful protests happening on the streets all across America and even beyond our shores. (Don’t be fooled. The media is amplifying the violence.)...

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Maybe it’s time to let the old ways die.
Maybe it’s time to let the old ways die.

How do we live fully and unapologetically from the heart when everything remains so freakin’ uncertain?    It seemed like this day might never come. Well, it hasn’t quite come yet.   We’ve been holed up for over two months here in the San Francisco Bay Area....

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Fear and Loathing in Corona-Land
Fear and Loathing in Corona-Land

No, Corona-Land is not some mythical tropical island where ice-cold buckets of Corona beers magically appear at your perfectly shaded hammock.   It’s this place – right here – where we humans now reside. For some, it’s a place of curiosity and watchfulness. For...

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Forget Resolutions. Write This Instead.
Forget Resolutions. Write This Instead.

F Resolutions.   For as long as I can remember, the passing of a New Year held a little extra shine for me. No matter what's going on in my life or in the world, the New Year provides a good measure of hope that anything is possible. It's a clean state.  ...

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2019. Wild, wild horses.
2019. Wild, wild horses.

2019 has been a wild ride! The energy of this year was fast and furious, like wild stallions riding across a vast plain. All year, I felt the drumbeat of so many hooves and felt the energy pushing everything forward, at a ferocious pace.   Did you feel it? The...

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